kweenofklubs

soooo I suppose its been over a year since last login and thought i should change to new journal entry.  Life is wonderful!

There has been so much going on...all except giving myself time to paint.  Why would I stop doing something that I love so much?  Maybe I needed a break, a breif period of time to go out, be young and stupid, not care about what I'm doing and how it is going to damage my future by putting me behind.  I am begining to miss my brush more and more each day.  I have forgotten how much something so simple as the smell of paint can put me in a place where all things dissapear and I can be creative, where artwork can be created without disturbance.  Pull yourself together tiff, and get something done!

it's been an eventfull, to say the least, past week.  I feel like so many life changes are happening and i thought i knew how to handle it but i am begining to realize that it's a little bigger than anticipated.  I just feel so heavy hearted and am not sure how or if i am handling things right.  i don't know... its akward i guess.  I know this is a very vauge journal but the whole story is a little long.  Am i suppossed to feel something specific or is it different for everyone?  i'm kind of confussed and have been upset to the point of making myself ill against my own will.  Things just suck to sum it up... and the mood thingy won't change..